hello world. i totally need a break man. i have to clear my leave but dunno when to. maybe around christmas period maybe. living for the weekend, a song i heard on the way this morning and that's so what i'm doing now. and i absolutely hate it. it's no longer my life i'm leading, everything seems so fake, so surreal. like i don't belong and i know that for sure.

i'm just tired so don't take anything i say too seriously. i'm feeling more rebellious these days, challenging everything everyone says. i fear for my safety someone might kick me one of these days. arrgh i just need to vent. i'm going for my course in a month. hope to get third sergeant shortly after. everyone says it's amazing how fast i'd be rising (given my so-called non-combat-ness), but i don't expect less from myself. i'd be able to do anything i want to. finally driving lesson again on saturday, after like what, 2 weeks. and my tp practical test is on 4 Nov in a couple of weeks, so pls pray for me. i have to pass the first time. and i will.